MC: CHRONIC TONSILLITIS
• Cold sores
• Frequent colds
• Hair loss
Pierre: Tell me about your chronic tonsillitis, please.
“It started as far back as when I was a young child. My husband seems to think it has been worse since I gave birth. I have to admit that it is almost always there. Sometimes it is followed by a nagging dryness in the throat and an itching cough. I have had a lot of hair loss since the pregnancy. Combined with a low immune system, I am getting frequent colds so it has been difficult. Even when my throat is normal, my tonsils look like a mess.”
Please, describe how it starts and develops a little more.
“When I get tonsillitis I first feel tired. It is like I am turning a low-grade fever on just like you turn an oven on. I don’t get a fever each time but it feels like it, then I feel tension in my throat, and later the scratching begins. It becomes very difficult to swallow and the pain goes to the ear. After that I get a fever within one day.”
You know the development of the tonsillitis very well, please, tell more.
“Well, after that the throat feels tight and it swells, it becomes difficult to swallow and my tongue becomes coated. At that point, it begins to take all my attention. I get concerned about whether I am going to get sick. Is it going to progress to something or not? On the first day of feeling like that, I may have a chance to get better if I get a lot of sleep. Every time I am going to get sick it worries me. “Here we go again.” The situation really frustrates me. If I am involved in some activity I may not feel it as badly as it really is but it does not stop it and then I pay the price for not paying attention to it.”
Please tell me about it “taking all your attention.”
“It just does. A person should do what they are supposed to do. It takes all my attention. Instead of flowing, it is right there. Out of 100 units of attention it takes 90 like I am my throat. Then I wonder, is it going to progress into something worse? What is contributing to this? Can I get more sleep? I get very wrapped up in it. My whole life I have been getting this and it concerns me. Another thing, I have been getting cold sores if I am out in the sun. There is something defective in me. It is as if I bought a brand new car and there is something wrong with it; I got gypped on my tonsils and my mouth.”
What is the feeling of being gypped?
“I don’t want these body parts. I don’t want them, they are not supposed to be working this way, and I am lacking the data to do something about it. Sometimes people feel that when something is going on it has to do with somebody else. That’s not accurate, I have this imperfect body part and I want to reclaim it. My throat and mouth are not supposed to be this way. It is a mystery to me, I look for answers inwardly but I don’t get anywhere. I can recall when I was a child what I wanted to do. As a child I had certainty about the path I wanted to take and two family members were critical of that. It shook up the certainty I had. That’s when my tonsils started acting up.”
Tell me more about how you felt then, please.
“Someone in my family was criticizing me. I remember it was a destabilizing feeling. I was very aware as a child and there was a lot of unhappiness. I was very communicative. I knew I could produce good results; I wanted to be an artist. I did not have much doubt about my abilities. Before being criticized, I felt very solid and directed. Now I’m shaken up and I’m just holding on to what I know. It’s a struggle to hold on to what I know. It’s a wobbly path.”
This is wonderful information for my purpose. Please continue.
“Of course, it didn’t help when my mother-in-law was talking about me either. She was critical of my pursuits. That really made me feel insecure or shaken up about it again.”
Tell me about feeling “shaken up,” please.
“It is not knowing. It is very uncomfortable and you just hold on to what you know. You harness it in some way. It is a struggle to hold on to what you know because at the same time you have a few doubts about that. It is a wobbly path.”
FOLLOW UP: (One and two months)
Pierre: Have you have been better?
“The first week was a little difficult. The mucus in the nose increased along with the eye discharge. Then for 3 or 4 days, I had intense intestinal cramping, as if a rock was trying to go through. After that, I developed a dry itching cough and now my tonsils are definitely smaller. The right one acts up a little more than the left but it doesn’t take my attention as much as before.”
Good start. What else can you tell me?
“The feeling of worry has reduced dramatically. I don’t worry about my throat getting sore and I feel a lot more stable.”
SEVERAL FOLLOW-UPS LATER: (Over one year)
“I have been doing very well. My son and husband are sick right now but I have not gotten sick. Usually, when that happens I get a full-blown throat infection. My tonsils are not so swollen. Actually, under normal circumstances, the tonsils are OK. I don’ have a low-grade fever. My hair has stopped falling out. I’m happy.”