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TREVOR
(Mid 40’s)

MC: FEELING STUCK IN LIFE

Pierre: Please tell me what brings you here.
“I don’t fundamentally believe in homeopathy. I am here because my wife told me to come see you. I am not going through much growth, I don’t like what I am doing and things are starting to weigh on me. I recognize that I need help to deal with my family and stagnating is not the way it is going to happen.”

Please describe the feeling of stagnating.
“My wife has had a lot of growth. I realize I spend much of my time being fake with my boss and I am paying a price for it. I used to say I eat life instead of just living it. At this job, I actually spend a lot of time doing what I don’t like to do and what’s coming back is that I am a fearful person. Maybe it has to do with my father who was very domineering and mean, I don’t know.”

Please tell me about being fearful.
“When my wife talks to me I feel dictated to. As soon as we get into a fight, I think she is going to leave me. I was very depressed in school. I screwed things up. I was very emotional and I cried uncontrollably. I used to think I was in the middle of a shell, crushed. It was the core of who I was – totally pressured. I spend so much energy to keep this force away. It is a downward force without any connection to the outside. I remember many years ago, one night I took mushrooms and everything went sideways. I wanted to burst the gate open. When I came out of this trip, everything had gotten dark except for a speck of light. After that, with a conscious choice I started to rebuild the pieces in my life that were circling around me and I put them back together like a puzzle. All the pieces are making a rope back to life, reconnecting to the world and also connecting me together. Until recently, I felt the flame but now the flame needs oxygen. If I stay in this job, it’s not going to be good. I promised myself I would not do that but I stay there anyway.”

Describe the experience of being in this situation.
“It’s like a big bottle. It all burst open, pieces of myself, and my life is totally out of control. I’ve been living with this ever since that night.”

Talk to me about feeling crushed.
“There were thick walls. The only way to not disappear was to have faith. I never had faith. My father never had any and pride was arrogance. Faith was something you can’t count on.  My father is the most pessimistic guy ever. I was left without any innocence, and I had to work to come back. I always felt I was hanging outside. Nobody taught me how to dress or clean myself. One kid always made fun of me. I asked him once, “Why do you do that?” He said, “Because you are easy. You are not clean and you are really badly dressed.” Then I started to study kids, and I realized I was not well taken care of, not well-dressed and I started to put the pieces of me together.”

Please describe the feeling.
“Mostly I felt empty, I had this core, and I needed to draw these people in. I never felt much connection. I like the way I am now though. I don’t necessarily want to fit in anymore.”

Describe the feeling of not having much connection, please.
“You feel alone and nobody gives a shit about you. Being alone is being with people who don’t like you and are withholding the connection with you. You are always going to be a misfit.”

Please describe the feeling.
“You feel like dirt. I don’t like large crowds. I feel very disconnected. I get irritated and I don’t like humanity like this. In these situations, it feels like I go back down in the hole or shell I was talking about before. It feels like there is a glass wall I can’t cross over to but people can see in. There is a fear of being disconnected, abused, as if I were spread wide open for anyone to mess with me.”

REMEDY:  
Cereus serpentina

FOLLOW-UP: (one month)
Pierre: How do you feel?
“I have been feeling calm, centered and connected. I am feeling calm beyond what I would normally feel. I still feel some anxiety, but to a lesser degree. I feel connected to my life, and by virtue of being connected I feel happy.”

What about the feeling of “being crushed?”
“The feeling of being crushed is gone. I feel as if there is a window of freedom, as if a weight has lifted off of me. I haven’t felt that way for quite awhile. I am physically big, but I don’t feel big. I am definitely feeling less nervous and fearful than before. My last job review could have been better, but it didn’t destabilize me. I guess I am not feeling so trapped.”

Could you please tell me about the anxieties.
“Anxieties are far better. When I got married, I was quite insecure. Now I don’t pay so much attention anymore. I don’t have that destabilizing feeling like I used to, I am living my life. I am pursuing things.”

REMEDY:
Continue.

 

DISCUSSION

 

This case presents a very common situation. His wife came to see me, upon seeing the results in her she asks him to make an appointment to see if I can do something for him. “I don’t fundamentally believe in homeopathy. I am here because my wife told me to come see you,” is not uncommon for me to hear. This brings up a very important point regarding believing in homeopathy. One does not need to believe in homeopathy for it to work. If this were the case, it would be pretty pathetic and it would certainly not work in animals but it does. As I mention in Chapter 2, I don’t believe in homeopathy myself. I just know it works.

This language “growth, I am a fearful person, my father was domineering, I am fake” is another case where it appears as if he needs psychotherapy. I don’t necessarily disagree but let’s see how homeopathy can help in such a case.

Psychotherapy is far more effective once the state is dealt with using a homeopathic remedy. Then really big breakthroughs can be achieved.

He took mushrooms and “everything went sideways.” It would appear as if they caused a biodynamic shift that needs to be remedied. But wait! Did the mushrooms really put him in the state he talks about? Read on…

If his experience of “putting the pieces back together” is reminding you of Samuel’s case of PTSD, you are right because the remedy belongs to the same family (see case). I think it is interesting to see the similarities as well as the
differences between these two cases.

This is fascinating. When he was a kid, he realized he was not well taken care of and he “started to put the pieces of him together.” That is the same experience as when he took the drugs. It seems as if the mushrooms were only a trigger, the state was already there.
Here there are a lot of questions I could ask about:
No faith?
No innocence?
Not taught?
Being made fun of?
Realizing of not being well taken care?
All would have led to the same experience, so I decided to keep the question as widely open as possible to allow the most freedom and his answer.

He is feeling like he is “going back down into the hole or like dirt.” This is the coping mechanism. In Launa’s case of post-partum depression, I explain more about that aspect in the initial consultation (see case).

He continues to be well. His wife gives him a dose of the remedy once every 10 months.